I am an idiot. Don’t be like me.

You’ll eventually reach where you want to be. Later if not sooner. But you’ll reach there. That’s what matters the most. Enjoy the ride.

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Holy Crap. Today, I turned twenty four. Sometimes I wish I was like Peter Pan, the boy who never grew up and could also fly which is very cool. That number suddenly has got alarm bells ringing in my head. I was like what the hell am I doing with my life. At the age of 24, with no job on the horizon so far and a personal life almost non existent and a lot of my friends and colleagues taking their steps in their careers, it suddenly hit me that the reason why I was down was because I was being a complete idiot. I have been doing one thing which a lot of people have advised me NOT to do. I was comparing myself with others. This is probably what shattered my self confidence.

Every person is unique. I always felt that I had this low self esteem regarding a lot of things. I mean, yeah no one is perfect but my chase of perfection is the stupidest thing that I have ever done. A lot of my friends recently are going to start their careers in the field of medicine and they are going to change the world. I am so happy for them but then then I start acting stupid and again these thoughts started racing in my mind. I was like “Dude, when are you going to get your shit together ?”. The thing is I actually have a clear plan to where I wanna go. So technically, I think I got my shit together but the only thing is that my journey is a little longer than usual. It took me a long while to finally grasp that and I still wonder if I may be able to hold it long enough. Hence, I wrote this post because whenever I start acting like the idiot that I am, I can read this and probably curse myself and say “Right, let’s continue our journey”.

I just hope no one out there is like me but if you are, then I only tell you one thing. Stop comparing yourself to others. Nothing good can come from that. You are a wonderful human being and you will reach where you want to go if not now, then later. Right now I am at peace with myself but I fear that is gonna get disturbed sooner rather than later and this post is going to be a constant remainder for me. So I conclude that 24 is not that old. Oh wait, I feel old, cold and alone again. Never mind, going through this post again. This feels like a shit post but some shit is good right ? Going to have some good whiskey before Endgame tonight. You have a good weekend. Bye !